There’s really no continuity of history any longer, and it really is difficult to go back and to piece things together in a chronological order. I understand a lot of Advaita teachers who say that there’s nothing to get, nowhere to go - it was always here - and they want to throw out the baby with the bathwater. But I think the history, to some degree, is important. If nothing else, to show that there was wearing away of ego, there was a lot of search involved in it, it wasn’t just waking up one morning and suddenly boom it’s there. Enlightenment is instantaneous but it may take years and lifetimes to get to that point. I started seeking at a very, very young age. Due to the fact, as what I saw later as a left handed blessing - of course at the time I didn’t think it was a blessing at all - I was in a home, and there wasn’t much love there, there wasn’t much giving, it was an abusive type of a household. And so there wasn’t much there to cling to, when it came to parents, there was no stability with that to hold to. There wasn’t this loving atmosphere of “We love you”, that was never heard, ever in the lifetime, as a child. And so I started to go inward, because there was nothing outwardly; I was not allowed to have friends, was not allowed to go out, was not allowed to do any of these things, so of course the natural inclination was to go within - to begin to go within.
Satsang 
